One of my greatest life-changing moments was when I became so broken physically, emotionally and spiritually, I couldn’t even properly care for myself, let alone my own children and family. I was a basket case, totally useless to anyone or anything and had continued to be so for months. I was broken… and beginning to believe I would forever be that way. And God wasn’t helping me. This was what life was going to be like for me. I had hit bottom.
And then God stepped in. I felt his unconditional love in a way I had never felt before. I somehow “knew that I knew” God loved me whether I remained useless to him and others or not. I didn’t have to be a doer for Him to love me. Because He already did. I felt awed.
I also felt so loved, I felt free to let go and felt the fight drain out of me as I stopped emotionally struggling with God and what had happened to me. I thought, “It’s OK God. If for some reason it’s your will I remain a basket case, then so be it. I’ll be the best basket case I can for You!” It might sound silly, but they were heartfelt words of relinquishment to the one who loved me unconditionally. And I felt unbelievable peace.
I relinquished my will to Him, and He renewed my life. An exchange I have never regretted.
If you ever hit a wall, or have hit one now, don’t give up. You have someone in your corner who loves you more than you know. You can trust Him.
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you
and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”